A Room with a View

Heath Ledger，28岁。
River Phoenix，23岁。
Nick Drake，26岁。

这么说Elliott Smith算是活得久的了。

他的死，没有公断。没有确切的证据表明是自杀。而且，那一年里他的身体状况很好，之前的酗酒和吸食海洛因的问题已经不像以前那样困扰他了。

2003年10月23日的那个午夜，他在厨房，胸口插着一把刀。他留了一张Post-it，说：我很抱歉，愿上帝宽恕我。
然而，并非所有证据都指向自杀。

wikipedia上的链接有他的官方尸检报告，很强大的互联网啊。

今天我才知道，Ben Folds的那首Late (from Songs for Silverman)是纪念他的。于是拿出来重听，几乎落泪。

 

LATE
by Ben Folds

Under some dirty words on a dirty wall
Eating takeout by myself
I played the shows
Got back in the van and put the Walkman on
And you were playing

In some other dive a thousand miles away
I played a thousand times before
And like pathetic stars, the truck stops and the rock club walls
I always knew
You saw them too
But you never will again

It's too late
Don't you know
It's been too late
For a long time

Elliott, man, you played a fine guitar
And some dirty basketball
The songs you wrote
Got me through a lot
Just wanna tell you that

But it's too late
It's too late
No, don't you know
it's been too late
for a long time

Oh no
Things were looking up
Least that's what I heard
Oh no
Someone came and washed away your hard-earned
Peace of mind

When desperate static beats the silence up
A quiet truth to calm you down
The songs you wrote
Got me through a lot
Just wanna tell you that

But it's too late
It's too late
No, don't you know
It's been too late
For a long time
It's too late
It's too late
No, don't you know
It's been too late
For a long time

在豆瓣小组发现的，大概来自imdb。我今天倒很闲的挑了一些译成中文...
我一直很喜欢Malkovich，他阴暗的很有光彩。

"Because I've been doing theatre so long, there isn't a lot for me to learn about theatre acting. But there is an enormous amount for me to learn about movie acting. It's not that I can't do it, but it never feels quite right. I almost always feel like a race car on a go-cart track. There's no place to unwind. Just as you get going, it's time to go home for the night."
因为我演话剧很久了，关于话剧表演我没有多少东西需要学，但是关于电影表演我有很多东西需要学。并不是我不能演（电影），只是电影表演从来都让我感觉不太对。我几乎总是觉得自己像是个赛车，却开在卡丁车的跑道上。（电影表演）没有展开的余地。在你刚刚觉得进入角色，就到晚上回家的时候了。

"I've always felt that if you can't make money as an actor, you`re either incredibly stupid or tragically unlucky."
我一直感到，如果你不能以表演谋生，那么你要么是难以置信的愚蠢，要么是如同悲剧般的不走运。

"I'm drawn to a character with a lack of humanity. People give reasons for being cruel or sadistic but I think it is just a lack of humanity and concern for others. I think I'm good at them because I don't like them. Audiences are attracted to them but I hate them. It's strange." - On why he enjoys playing evil characters.
我会被那些缺乏人性的角色吸引。人们会分析那些角色之所以残忍或者喜欢施虐的原因，但是我认为他们只是缺乏人性，缺乏对他人的关心。我觉得我擅长表演这些角色是因为我不喜欢他们。观众们会被他们吸引，但是我厌恶他们。这很奇怪。

"I was born in the West after World War II in a senselessly wealthy country, and I never really had to struggle. Sure, there were years when I didn't have a refrigerator or stove, but that's nothing compared to Rwanda."
我出生在二战后的一个富有的西方国家，富有到了无知的程度。我从来不需要奋斗。当然，的确曾经有些年，我没有冰箱也没有炉子，但是和卢旺达的情况比起来那简直算不了什么。

"The other day I was walking down the street in the rural town where we live (in France) and a truck hit me, rather hard, going fairly fast. And he starts to drive off, so I chase after him, reach in the window and grab his steering wheel. And I say, 'Normally, in a civilized society, when we hit someone with a truck, we might inquire as to their well being.' So he said, 'I'm sorry,' and I said, 'Great. Try and be a little more careful and that would be fantastic, and so sorry to have troubled you.' I walk another 30 meters and he pulls up beside me a second time -- and asks me if he can have an autograph."
有一天我在我住的乡下小镇的街上走，那是在法国。一辆卡车撞了我，撞的很猛，它开的挺快。然后它就准备开走了，于是我追上它，把手伸进车窗抓住了他的方向盘。我说："正常情况下，在一个文明的社会里，我们要是开卡车撞到什么人，我们可以询问一下他们是否还好。"于是司机说，"我很抱歉。"我说，"很好。以后你要是能试着小心点就太好了。抱歉我打扰你了。"我又走了大概30米，司机第二次在我边上停下车 - 他问我能不能要个签名。

"It's something I always liked. I don't know where that came from. I always imagine it was from being very fat as a child. I was a very good baseball player and football player as a kid, but my father always told me - occasionally while striking me - that I was much more interested in how I looked playing baseball or football than in actually playing. And I think there's great truth in that." - On Fashion.
关于时尚 - 我一直喜欢时尚。我不知道这个中原因。我总觉得大概是因为自己小时候特别胖的缘故。我小时候是个非常好的垒球手，足球也踢得很好，但是我爸爸老是说：我更感兴趣的不是打垒球或者踢足球，而是我打垒球或者踢足球的样子。正是他的话让我意识到很大程度上的确是这样。

"I want to be successful. I would like it to be a success with something that doesn't make me want to vomit all over the screening room after I've seen it." (1980s quote)
我想要成功。而那个我成功所凭借的作品呢 - 我希望它不是让我看完之后想在放映室里大吐特吐的那种。

"The movie should appeal to everyone. It's sleazy, elegant, vicious and mean, and it's about people doing hideous things to each other. If that weren't enough, it has a tragic end. What more could people ask for?" - On Dangerous Liaisons.
关于电影《危险关系》 - 这个片子应该对每个人都有吸引力。它腐朽，高雅，邪恶，卑劣。它讲的是人们用骇人的丑恶手段对待彼此。如果这还不够劲，它还有个悲剧的结局。人们还能需要什么呢？

As I walked out one evening,
    Walking down Bristol Street,
The crowds upon the pavement
    Were fields of harvest wheat.

And down by the brimming river
    I heard a lover sing
Under an arch of the railway:
    "Love has no ending.

"I'll love you, dear, I'll love you
    Till China and Afica meet,
And the river jumps over the mountain
    And the salmon sing in the street.

"I'll love you till the ocean
    Is folded and hung up to dry
And the seven stars go squawking
    Like geese about the sky.

"The years shall run like rabbits,
    For in my arms I hold
The Flower of the Ages,
    And the first love of the world."

But all the clocks in the city
    Began to whirr and chime:
"O let not Time deceive you
    You cannot conquer Time.

"In the burrows of the Nightmare
    Where Justice naked is,
Time watches from the shadow
    And coughs when you would kiss.

"In headaches and in worry
    Vaguely life leaks away,
And time will have his fancy
    To-morrow or to-day.

"Into many a green valley
    Drifts the appalling snow
Time breaks the threaded dances
    And the diver's brilliant bow.

"O plunge your hands in water
    Plunge them up to the wrist;
Stare, stare in the basin
    And wonder what you've missed."

"The glacier knocks in the cupboard,
    The desert sighs in the bed,
And the crack in the tea-cup opens
    A lane to the land of the dead.

"Where the beggars raffle the banknotes
    And the Giant is enchanting to Jack,
And the Lily-white Boy is a Roarer
    And Jill goes down on her back."

"O look, look in the mirror,
    O look in your distress;
Life remains a blessing
    Although you cannot bless."

"O stand, stand at the window
    As the tears scald and start;
You shall love your crooked neighbor
    With your crooked heart."

It was late, late in the evening
    The lovers they were gone;
The clocks had ceased their chiming,
    And the deep river ran on.

从今天起确认自己成为W. H. Auden的fan. 
The years shall run like rabbits....原来是这里来的. Before Sunset || Sunrise ? 里Jesse Wallace (Ethan Hawke)说过的台词。

Jake Gyllenhaal's puzzled yet dreamy eyes. lol

这片子我看晚了。
病休在家的星期一下午，两个半小时 咻 的过去。自己给自己放假 - 放假的主题是 - 一个横贯几十年的连环杀人案。
唔，你很可以的。

喜欢喜欢我很喜欢！douban上我给了5星。大概因为之前我没有很多很多期许（不像那些男愤青，他们希望还有一部Se7en或者Fight Club那样的经典但是这次不是于是大失所望）。
David Fincher还是David Fincher，我喜欢他电影的画面，色调，那种灰暗，污浊的黄绿色，不停下雨的酝酿犯罪的城市。
叙事很平稳，太平稳了一点，但是我仍然看得很紧张。Jake Gyllenhaal在里边生了一副让人紧张兮兮的样子。他在Bob Vaugn家里地下室的那场 - 天哪我吓死了。

Zodiac - 这名字小酷。结果翻译后成为 - 十二宫，傻不啦叽的。

重拾对Jake Gyllenhaal的好感。很好看的眼睛。
我对于他们姐弟俩都很有爱！Maggie Gyllenhaal自从03年的Secretary以来瘦了许多似乎，Stranger than Fiction里她轻盈的像个小猫 - 配傻乎乎的法莱尔再合适不过。